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Jan. 20th, 2009 | 08:50 am
mood: busybusy

Barack Obama becomes our 44th President. It's going to be a good day.

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Wait

Mar. 30th, 2008 | 11:13 pm

You'll have to forgive my random writings, but I'm going to choose to not even look while I'm writing this. I'm a little bothered, and I don't care to re-read this and see how it turned out.

Despite having a great day with kevin, one in a million actually, things didn't turn out the way I wished they had. I didn't have any type of great expectation set for the day, I didn't, but I hit another wall. I've known most of this relationship that all I ever do is wait on him. Not in a waiting on him like a maid. No, I'm just constantly on hold for when Kevin's ready to do something.

We wait until he's ready to go to the gym at 8:30PM or so, which is well beyond the time I'd like to go. I wait on him to get done napping so I can hang out with him. I wait for him to get off work so we can do things.

I waited 4 months for him until we got back together. Now he's buying a house. And now I get to wait on him to ask me to marry him for us to move forward again.

I feel like I'm always waiting on him to catch up. I may be rushing life, but I'm very comfortable with where I am and the choices I wish would be made. I don't think I'd look back and be mad at myself for wanting to get married (and theoretically doing so) at this age. I just don't understand why for him things take so much longer to shuffle through. It's actually really discouraging to me.

He's going to be putting an offer down on a house in the next few days, then he'll be moving some friends in with him. This again does nothing but stall out any potential of us moving forward. I'm not asking to move in with him the day he buys the house and moves in himself, but it's just annoying.

I sometimes feel as if I'm dating a 12-year-old who's consistently afraid to take the next step. Like he's afraid to let go of his safety blanket and move on with life. Grow up, you know?

He's a few weeks away from being 25. My sister is a few weeks away from being 26. I look at the difference in where they are in life, and I think it just bothers me even more. I won't sit and compare/contrast their lives because they are no way, shape or form similar people, but it's just the principal of it.

Now that I'm out of college and have a good job, there's not many milestones left in life. I don't care if I'm rushing it.

I'm just annoyed. I wish he would catch up to me and stop stalling out all the time.

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For those of you who don't know...

Mar. 8th, 2008 | 10:08 am

Life is pretty awesome right now. My job is fantastic, and what that means is that I'm in Austin at the moment for SXSW Interactive. I've got a rather busy day ahead of me, so this post won't be long. I'm in a panel at the moment, so I'm going to stop talking soon.

That being said, I'm going to try and broadcast the next few days of my experience at SXSW on my facebook. Go read muh notes.

Kevin and I are back together. Life is swell. I think I owe it all to being awesome.

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It's been too long since a picture post.

Dec. 20th, 2007 | 01:40 am
mood: creativecreative
music: Intervention

So here you go.Collapse )

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The end of an era.

Dec. 12th, 2007 | 07:49 pm

I'm done.
I'm done with college.
I'm really done.
I'm really, really done.
At 4PM this afternoon, I finished my last exam. I closed my last textbook. I logged off of WebCT Vista for the last time. I submitted my last grade to the University of North Texas. I will worry about my grade for the very last time.

It's so odd to think that the last 17 years of my life are over.
I was on the phone with Mom and she said that this afternoon, my childhood ended. Maybe that was a little dramatic, but it's true. I won't be in school anymore. I can't use it as a reason as to why I can't stay out late. I can't use it as a reason I just can't devote that much time to work.

Life as I know it has ended. Now THAT'S dramatic. But how true it is. Over the past two months, the life I thought I had, and was going to continue to have, has ended. It's the beginning of a new life for Lisa Marie Randolph.

So here's where I stand:
-I have no job.
-I have no boyfriend.
-I no longer have to go to school.
-I don't know where I'm going to end up, but I know I'll be safe.

And here's what I know:
-I will eventually be hired.
-I will find somebody that really loves me and thinks that I AM the one.
-I will have more free time outside of work and will finally start living life.
-I really don't know where I'm going, but I know I have friends and I have my family, both of which love me more than I could ever imagine.

I'm going to do big things.
I'm going to make something of myself.
I've been getting down about all these changes so often lately, but these changes are bringing some marvelous opportunities in my life.

I should never settle for a job that I don't want. I should be proud of myself for making it this far in life and being this successful. I will do my best not to rush through life too quickly. I'm 22. I don't have to be married. I, Lisa Randolph, can be single. I can do this, I know.

And that's my story.
It's a large question mark at the moment, but things are going to clear up eventually. Answers will come soon. Resolve is on its way. I promise.

I'm going to keep my head up and keep moving forward. I've got nowhere to go but up.

Keep me in your thoughts. I've got a lot of obstacles ahead of me before I'm set. I have a feeling it's going to be an interesting journey.

I love you all more than you could ever know.

-Lisa Marie Randolph

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medical update.

Aug. 14th, 2007 | 05:15 pm

So last week the doctors called me and told me that the ultrasound for my galbladder turned out fine. There are no galstones in my system and I don't have galbladder disease.

But then I got a call this morning from the same nurse who told me that she was unaware of the final report from the ultrasound. She said everything looked fine, really, but that I have a dilated common bile duct. She then informed me that I needed to make an appointment with a G.I. specialist, which I did. It's on August 27th, the same day school starts.

I wasn't really worried about it until a bit ago. I think it just kind of hit me about what's going on.

I did some research online and a dilated common bile duct is usually a result of a stuck galstone. But the ultrasound didn't show any galstones at all. So I read more and the other possible causes are tumors and cysts.

I'm scared that I'll probably have to go in for surgery. I don't want to go down that route at all. Plus I got abdominal pain today, something the G.I. doctor I spoke with this morning said was something I needed to watch out for. If that occurs, I may need to go to the ER, and I don't want to. I really don't. It only lasted an hour anyway.

I'm just scared.
There's nothing I can do about it right now, so I'm going to stop worrying about it at the moment. Or at least try to stop worrying.

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With the good comes the bad

Aug. 9th, 2007 | 09:25 pm

The Really Great News:
I got a promotion at work today. I'm no longer an intern at Biodiesel Industries. No, now I'm the Operations Coordinator. And you know what that meant? Pay raise. I went from $12.75/hr to $14.00. It's amazing how in February of this year I was making $9.00, the highest hourly rate at that point. Wow. $5 more an hour. They took me to lunch at Greenhouse, praised my hard work over the past 2.5 months, and gave me the raise. Best part is the raise was applied to the direct deposit for tomorrow morning.

So yes. That's really great news. Things are definitely looking up in that area.

The Really Bad News
As some of you may know (mainly my really close friends), I've been battling with intense nausea after meals and severe body ache on and off for several years. So after waking up for the 4th day in a row feeling like crap, I went to see a doctor yesterday. After talking with her for a little while, she decided that I may have several different things:

For the crippling body aches, she thought I might have lupus or rheumatoid arthritis. So they took a rather large blood sample as well as a urine sample to test that. The results will be in tomorrow. Wish me luck on that.

And as for the nausea, she assumed something was wrong with my galbladder. As soon as my exam was over, she rushed me off to get a sonogram (as opposed to a CT scan or MRI) to check everything out. They called me today and told me the results were negative for galbladder disease, so that's good. On the other hand, since that came back negative, I now have to go to gastro-intestinal doctor and let them send a camera down my esophagus to check out my stomach. That will not be a pleasant trip at all, but if it means not feeling like this anymore, it will be worth it.


Ah, my Mom just called and told me she said the aching really sounded like hypothyroidism.
After looking at the symptoms, that makes complete sense. And she told me she suffers from that. It makes a lot of sense. Well, I guess I'll wait for the doctors to call me in the morning and tell me waht's going on, then I can mention to them that I think I have hypothyroidism.

Please wish me the best.

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Sweet 16

Jun. 8th, 2007 | 06:01 pm
mood: happykevin es bueno
music: Circa Survive - In the Morning and Amazing

As I just realized, I've been using this journal for 7 years. That's a third of my life. I'm tickled pink I've been using this thing that long. I have a lot of stuff I can go back and read up on. Archives from when I was 14. Yikes. haha.

I can't believe nobody said anything in regards to the engagement ring crap! You all go to hell! Kevin and I are looking at rings. We've alerted all family members (except my Dad) so far. The only reason we haven't told my Dad is because I think he would really appreciate being asked permission to give away his little girl first before he finds out that we're already planning without his consent. Not anytime soon, though. The whole engagement process will take place very near my graduation in December.

Speaking of Kevin, today he and I have been together for 16 months. That's pretty damn good. I'm very much so head over heels for the boy. We have our spats, but we're so used to each other that we know how to get over them quickly. For instance, today he was listening to Dream Theater and I just flat out said, "Kevin, they suck." We fought for like 20 seconds, then we turned it into a really in-depth discussion about musical interests and were fine. It was awesome. I could never picture myself with anybody else but Kevin Sluder. He's...amazing. I think I take him for granted sometimes, but I do all that I can to really let him know how much I love him. We just work. It's somewhat unreal to me to have been with someone this long and still be as in love with him as I was the first time we kissed. He's just perfect (for me).

And I painted my other bedroom.
There.

And I expect some fucking comments back this time, bitches!

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A real update!

May. 24th, 2007 | 08:16 am
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: Mew - 156

Hello, all. I don't update this thing as often as I should, but I'm not too concerned about it. I think that facebook and myspace get more attention, so that's fine with me. 

Work has really been making me mad lately. They haven't had anything for me to work on in more than a week. It's really, really annoying. So I don't know what the deal is, but they're supposed to provide me with property flyers to do, and they haven't gotten me one in the longest time. It's really pissing me off because I haven't made a cent in a while.

I got off Mom's plan with Sprint onto my own, so that's another cost I have to cover now. Just in the knick of time to not have any money to spend on it. 

Oh, Kim and I went to see Brigid in Austin this past weekend. We had a really, really great time. We got dressed up on Sunday night and went to The Melting Pot, a.k.a. the most expensive place in the world. We all agreed that was the absolute most we've ever paid for a dinner ($30 each). It was fun, though. I have pictures. I just don't feel like going through the upload process anymore. Just know that I had curly hair. It was insane. That picture is default on my myspace account: www.myspace.com/mu_empress

I went to Half-Price Books yesterday with Dad. I bought the Cat Sitter DVD for $5. If you haven't heard of this, it's a collection of clips of birds, fish and other assorted rodents running around on screen while the audio plays sounds of birds and nature sounds. haha. It's great. Bert really loves it. Raven is just a little too crazy to appreciate it.

I also bought Capote ($10) & The Motorcycle Diaries ($7). I've never seen either of the two movies, but I just thought they were good buys. I mean, The Motorcycle Diaries is from Focus and features the most attractive man ever to be born. Then Capote is just obvious. I just need to see it.

I'm sneezing a lot. Well, I'm going to go shower now. I have no clue if I'm going to work today or not, but I'm giong ot go ahead and assume that I'm not. So I plan on hanging out with some friends today. Hopefully that will all work out.

I really need to stop dreaming.

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Apr. 29th, 2007 | 10:59 am

I've been seriously thinking.
When I graduate, I want to move to Austin.

I'm ready for a change.

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