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Mar. 3rd, 2009 | 09:17 am
location: Denton
mood: thankfulready
music: Frasier

I went to Seattle the 20-23 of Feb. It was the most amazing trip of my life. The weather was gorgeous, the people were so incredibly friendly, the buildings were beautiful, the walks were refreshing...

That being said, I've decided that I'm going to do everything in my power to move to Seattle. I've talked to everybody (all my family and most friends) about leaving, and I'm receiving mixed reactions. Most are very weary of me just picking up and leaving. Like I'm running from something. I can assure you that I am by no means running away from life. I'm just running towards a better place with better opportunities and better days and different people. The only person I have left to discuss this with is my boss. I think it will go over well. I think he'll let me do it, but I doubt I'll be able to keep the job very long. I'd like to, though. It's a great job.

Since I've been back, I've had little to no interest in Kevin. When I see him, I don't want to be around him. When he speaks, I don't want to hear him. When I see pictures of him, I don't even recognize him. He's not the person I used to love. And I'm not in love with him anymore. I'm actually quite detached from the situation. It's taken a long time to see it, but I see now how badly he treated me. He's given me the run around for almost 3 years. I tried with all of my heart, body and soul to make that relationship work, but it wasn't enough. And for that I will never blame myself for the demise of our relationship. Enough. I'm moving on. Very happily moving on.

But I'm not going to see anybody in Texas anymore. I've cut all ties with those I was talking to. I need to focus on me and how to get myself to Seattle as soon as possible.

So. I guess I'll update you soon with how the talk goes. And then we can plan my going away party. :)
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Mark

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from: flat_line
date: Mar. 4th, 2009 12:17 am (UTC)
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Dollcheeks... you're not running, you're just growing. I'd highly advise a change of scenery, and Seattle is effin' awesome. Its like Texas, without all the redneck-y pretentiousness (if that makes sense).

My vote is for Seattle. Do it!! :)

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Lauren Brock

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from: pinkie200
date: Mar. 4th, 2009 12:25 am (UTC)
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Wow Lisa! Good luck. Let me know how it goes.

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